4 Eyes and 4 Ears Everywhere

Lately I've been concerned about giving each of you enough attention. There are 4 eyes and 4 ears on everything that I do. If I'm singing to one of you, the other is always watching and listening. Does that make you sad? I try so hard to take turns with you. 

I worry that if I pick up Charlotte first, Olivia will be sad or feel abandoned. I worry if I look at Olivia when I say peekaboo, Charlotte will be sad or feel less loved. If I feed you in the morning, then Daddy makes sure to feed you at night. If I got Charlotte out of bed first, then I try to make sure I get Olivia up first the next day. If I sing a song to one baby, I have to sing it to the other. I even switch eyes during Old MacDonald from one of you to the other: "With a Moo Moo" to Olivia "and a Moo Moo" to Charlotte. It's exhausting and no matter how hard that I try, I feel like one day one of you always gets more of my attention that the other. 

So I'm left wondering: Does Olivia lay in her bed playing silently so well because she's so used to me getting Charlotte first? Or do I pick up Charlotte first because Olivia is playing so happily on her own?  Does Charlotte not like my songs as much because I tend to look at Olivia more during them or do I look at Olivia more because she enjoys them more than Charlotte? 

It's exhausting to worry about, but I still try my best every single day. I love you both, and I love you each as individuals and I never want you to feel any differently. More importantly, I don't want either of you to be shaped in any way (negatively) by something I did or didn't do for you vs. your sister. 

At the end of the day, one of the things that will shape your personality is the fact that you're a twin. But I'm very aware that how I treat you is also something that will shape you. I'm doing my best!